Monday, August 02, 2010

Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day

So, remember that post where I was all zen and happy and shit...yeah...I ran out of time and gas money and didn't get to the pharmacy to pick up my meds and today has been such a fucking roller coaster it's ridiculous. Woke up happy, got sad, got happy, felt serene for about five minutes, then got irritated. My mind has been hopping from subject to subject without actually finishing a single thought. I've been grumpy and teary since the midget went to bed.

I watched an episode of Whale Wars and then half an episode of Pit Boss, and when I started sobbing and cuddling my dogs and trying to figure out how to justify adopting a pit bull, I said...Um...Fuck this...and turned off the television and turned on my iPod and did dishes and some more unpacking and cleaning. I've since taken a sleeping pill and am now trying to shut my brain down with mindless facebook games.

However, while listening to my iPod and singing (screaming) really badly, I decided I really, really wanted to share this song with you, gentle reader. I think if I could just play this on an internal loop 24/7 I'd be so much easier to withstand...

1 comment:

LouAnn said...

You make me cry.. :-{ Don't you know that in so many of our eyes, you ARE a winner!?! You are a beautiful, intelligent, woman, who is a fantastic single mom, amazingly true friend, and a very special, highly complicated, intricate, loving daughter to more than one set of parents....and if I could take all your aches, pains, depressions and hurt from you, believe me I would!